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A Mother’s Love
04:24
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A Mother’s Love
Mothers never love me
Baby thats why you should
Fill me up with mother’s love
Like my mama never could
Fathers always dying
Baby that’s why you will
Me and my broken heart
Another day amongst the rubble
Brothers bide their time
They’re not much for showing
And so you disappear
I don’t know where you’re going
Me, I’m in a bottle
Me, I’m growing hazy
You said we were poison
The fuck you know, you’re crazy
You’re crazy
Give me my Mother’s love just give it to me
Here it is, I brought a glass
I fucking had it for a second then I lost it
No one else can take a chance
Like me
Well, I said I’d face the fire and I meant it
But like a woman, that letter never sent it
It doesnt matter ‘cause you only like the smell of my hair
‘Cause I buy perfume
And to be honest it’s exhausting keeping up this act of loving
Perfect bloom
For you
You said you’d never love me but that’s bullshit
You never had love, how could you know it
Well I don’t need a man
And I don’t need a woman
I’m just looking for a feeling
That some call loving
Surely I can stand
I did it, it was nothing
But life is proving harder
Than I thought i could suffer
Time swallows me like sinking sand
I’m gargling and I’m warbling
I felt like such a person with you then I
Found out I was nothing
And I break I break I break
I wait I wait I wait
I’m glass, you’re slate that waiter’s late
I am fool proof, I proove fools have my face
That waiter’s late what is his rate
If it was my shop I don’t know if he’d get paid
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At Your Leisure
03:42
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At Your Leisure
You drag my clothes off
I give you head parked at the lights
I tell a select few dozen friends
Hear from your wife
But it’s always at your leisure
My enjoyment I can’t measure
Your mouth’s made for me
My body fits into your hands
Avoid the talking
Don’t expect you to understand
You are a holiday
I am a waterslide
I’ll never wash your clothes
You’ll never be my guy
Is it all for this song
If it is, is that wrong
I didn’t want to find love
Now it’s burnt on my heart
You’re a classic you’re a clown
I’m a depressive always down
Never sober I’ve decided
The way you treat me’s uninvited
You have terrible taste
And our love’s such a waste
I’ll quit one of these days
But not till my tears go away
Call me when you want a ride
Call me when you want a wine
Call me when you have the time
But you’ll never call me mine
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3. |
That Feeling Like
03:00
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That Feeling Like
That feeling like everything’s melting away
That feeling like one second equals a day
That feeling like I can’t remember at all
If I have been here for twenty years or four
Well I think it’s four
But wait
Is it more that that
More than that
That feeling like everything’s under the sun
That feeling like everyone’s two, but I’m one
That feeling like crushing a month in my palm
That feeling like millions of holes still to darn
But I dont know how
What is that smell
Is it me
Is it me
That feeling when everything’s falling apart
That feeling when no one knows their lines by heart
I promise today has disappeared for me
So anything you said, just say I agreed
I said yes, of course
You’re smart, for sure
Baby
Baby
That feeling like everything’s turned on it’s head
That long speech that starts out of blue, ‘Well I read..’
That feeling like I don’t care if we all die
Fading curiosity as to if/why
It will return
I’ve heard it said
What burns can burn
Well, so I read
That feeling like the end has eclipsed the start
That feeling when somebody talks about art
That feeling when going outside breaks your heart
That feeling when nobody talks about art
Lets fuck, I said
Let’s fuck my friend
Let’s fuck, it’s dead
Lets fuck, I’m scared
And I’m scared
And I’m scared
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Every Loser Needs A Mother
You’re nothing you’re no one to me
Don’t call me with problems
‘Cause I’ll help and hate myself
The wind I blew in on would freeze
The warmest of blood
Why do I always hurt myself
I’m facedown in a street
I wobble to the beat
But every loser needs a mother
Every drunk I’ll make my lover
You’re not special you’re another
Way I give life to my father
I’m done being careful to you
You tore all my time up
And you never told the truth
Look, hey you’re a project it’s true
A real fixer-upper
Fuck it, she deserves you
Well I’m nothing but I’m here
Despite my best efforts dear
Well every weak guy needs a mother
I’ll be here I’ll be your mother
Unable to resist summons
On my knees I’ll drink it all in
Every loser needs a mother
I’ll be here I’ll be your mother
Every broken man I’ll cling to
Please come in, what did you bring though?
Well I laid out his clothes
And I laughed at his jokes
And I stumbled around in
Heels and no clothes
And I went to his hell
And he kicked me out
And I still can tell what
Love is about
He’s so fucking dumb
And I talk to myself
And I’m so fucking dumb
Someone please put me down
Well I register this
Register nothing else
Not in life but a song
But I think that still counts
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Me And Ennui Are Friends, Baby
Me and Ennuie are friends, baby
I’m scared of dying but that
Won’t stop me trying
Tried to end it all, I’d not tried lately
August 11 2019
And I didn’t call my mum
‘Cause I hate that bitch
And I didn’t call my dad
‘Cause the phone don’t reach where he is
But I called my friend Tim
I’d do anything for that kid
On the way to stay alive I asked the guy his job
He said, ‘A Paramedic’
Death comes first, don’t wanna talk about the break up
Or the other break up
Spend my money on my makeup
Working on my body, wrap my crazy like a package
Who could’ve known
How broke the wreckage
And maybe I should chill out on blaming my parents
Forgiveable at 25, it’s not cute at 37
But maybe I’ll just pour my soul into another few songs
The only time that I feel real
The only time I don’t feel wrong
And I miss love, I can hear it crashing like waves
On a warm beach where the air is kisses and everybody’s saved
And I wish I never put myself in all this danger
Perhaps I’ll meet Safety and we’ll shake hands and he wont be a stranger
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6. |
Always Falling
02:57
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Always Falling
If I could I’d make my way to you
Bite ‘til blood become a part of you
But you don’t want me
I always want the things I can’t have most of all
No pride I’m always falling
From here to other worlds
If you’d just adore me
I swear I’d quickly smash it on the ground
Make us wish each other never found
Make your blood run cold
Slid around on each other’s beds
Wine and sweat now love’s locked in my head
‘Cause I’m a sucker for anyone who’s distant and aloof most of all
No flight I’m always falling
Into other people’s worlds
You’ll never adore me
But I’ll chase it ‘till I die
Or you die
Whatever comes first
Only in death my blood is cold
Leave a window slightly open
Leave a key beside the door
We can’t be together broken
But maybe one day we’ll be whole
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7. |
Full Mood
04:14
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There’s the wine
And your eyes straight up decorate this room
And the day like the tide
Fucks off following the moon
You light me a cigarette
And I’ve always liked that move
You know someone at the bar
And I’m happy that I don’t
‘Cause you got me in a full mood
I’m on fire for you
Wanna colour in the world for you
‘Cause you got me in a full mood
Let’s just casually get drunk
Throw some glitter on the road
Tell some broad we’re gonna fuck
We can do it if you want
You dont think you’re very bright
God, you’re shining like a star
And we’d rip this town to shreds
Cutting round into the dark
‘Cause you got me in a full mood
Thinking of your sweat makes red my blues
Wanna colour in the world for you
‘Cause you got me in a full mood
Well you got me in a full mood
Tapping into something in my blood
Well you got me in a full mood
You got me in a full mood
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8. |
Let’s Go Home
03:36
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Let’s Go Home
Let’s go home
While homes still something
Let’s go home
While home’s still there baby
I’m not much for repeating lyrics
But I’ll repeat every sickness I’ve every had baby
Have you ever had a day when you just felt beautiful
Like every part of you had come to life
Well I’m a kind of person, I can’t help you anywhere
Everyone keeps calling, I’m not alright
Where I’m from the night it freezes
All the sound ‘til it’s crystal
And you can’t breathe
Where I’m from the trees move and they reproach you
‘Cause you can leave
But they can’t leave
Well they can leave
But they can’t leave
I know how clever that sounds
It’s all I’ve got now you’re not around
Let’s go home
While home’s still something
Let’s go home
While home’s still there baby
I’m not one for admitting weakness
But I’ve really let us down this time baby
Have you ever had a day when you just felt colourful
Like every part of you was drenched in light
Well I’m a kind of person you can’t take me anywhere
Everyone keeps calling
But I’m not alright
‘Cause you can leave
But I can’t leave
And you can leave
But I cant leave
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9. |
Don’t Like You Talking
04:01
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Don’t Like You Talking
Don’t like you talking
To other girls
Though we’re both taken
To seeking thrills
You turn me out
I’ll turn you on
One day we’ll be old
One day we’ll be gone
She’ll pick you up
You’ll lay me down
Am I different?
I don’t know how
But surely secrets
Our bodies know
Can count for something
Could melt the snow
You like her photo
But none of mine
Don’t like you looking
I know she’s fine
She got her lips done
Hotter than me
But I’m so-
You know it’s me
You send a message
Not making sense
I’m staying ready
I think that’s best
Click on a window
Ignore your phone
Not doing drugs
Suddenly stoned
Breaking the fourth wall
I’m not a void
I’m strictly business
You are a toy
I turn you on
You turn me out
One minute real
The next you’re gone
Don’t like you talking
To other girls
Don’t like you talking
To other girls
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I Was Much Better At Being Young Than You Are
No one sees the things I do
Draining out my eyes
Driving round for you
I saw a picture of you not long ago
Didn’t wanna know you
Wouldn’t have wanted to
On my lawn in plain view like a burning cross
Run your fingers over me my loves embossed
Ran under streetlight ‘til my heart stopped
You’re not as good at being young as I was
With a book under my arm baby
Polished concentrated charm
And I knew everyone in town baby
Around me, in my mind, the whole city spun
And I never felt that way again
Pure love on my skin
Proud to call him my man
You’re not as good at being young as I am
‘Cause I did it right baby
I made friends with the night
So even when I’m lost inside him
He makes sure that I get home alright
So much starlight in my eyes
Causing trouble chasing guys
And I won them in my funny little room
Red satin sheets and cheap perfume
So wind down the windows baby
Give me your hand I’ll hold it tight
And if you never speak to me again baby
I’ll never forget tonight
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11. |
When You’re Sleeping
02:14
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While You’re Sleeping
And I almost drowned
And I almost lay down on the ground
Your voice the only sound
Tied to someone’s belt, you’re a fucking child
I know love when I see it
I don’t need you to believe it
I choose torture over dreaming
I crawl into your mind when your sleeping
Round and round and round
Haven’t been so floored in the longest time
Cloud nine to a cloud
Where you were just a puff of smoke, smell of bile
We are something to compete with
Will I ever get my strength back
I grow docile eat my feelings
You’re so facile you’re a demon
I know love when I see it
I don’t need you to believe it
I choose torture over dreaming
I crawl into your mind when your sleeping
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Will The Lord Hold My Hand
Will the lord hold my hand
When I’ve only ever been bad
Breaking down houses around me
‘Cause I can’t keep my soul on dry land
Don’t know how I compare
To the ones who mostly play fair
But Jesus I swear
That I try every day to get clear
Get clear of everything that’s holding me back
Get clear, listen I don’t want you coming back
‘Cause you are a danger I can’t afford
Dragging me down into mud
You are a stranger and I am bored
You are the one that I love
Will the lord stop my sad
Well I think that I’ve had my fair share
Well I know I’ve been bad
The villain’s a costume I wear
Oh lord please agree
That my time crying tears is through
Open your doors to me
And I promise I’ll always be true
Be true, but that means I’m stuck to that man
Like glue, I’m stuck to his eyes and his hands
But he is a danger I can’t afford
He doesn’t care who I am
He is a stranger and he is bored
Only wants me on my back
You are a danger I can’t afford
Dragging me down into mud
If I could catch you
But hey, then what?
You’re only the one that I love
Mess it up
Fuck it up
Ruin all my loves
This is my lot
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